Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Hey guys. I know it has been a few days since my last update, but my life has just been so jumbled that I just didn't have time. First I would like to thank Survival of the Thinnest for the support. I really need it at this point in my life. I feel like everything is going wrong, even the small things in my life. It's not just my trouble with eating, it is everything. Absolutely everything. I feel I don't have any control over my life. My eating has been really bad for the past few weeks, as most of you know. It has continued. I haven't exercised. I have been eating everything I want to eat and everything I don't. I haven't purged one bit of it up. I just want to die. I could really use your support, until I get back on track. Last night I was up crying and thinking to myself. I thought that maybe I am supposed to be fat, so everyone else has something to look at and realize they don't want to look like me. I have so many emotions flowing out at once. I wish I could fill you in on what has been going on. I am really sorry that I can't, but it is for the sake of my identity. You understand, right? I don't want to feel like I am alone in all of this, but the truth is I am alone. I have no one to help me out, no one to support me, no one to just sit by my side and allow me to cry. I hate it so much. Well I am afraid I must make this short.

Stay strong, starve on.
I love you all.

By the way: If you would like to be metioned in my blog like a few others have been, you have to leave me a very supporting comment. That is how the others were mentioned. Thanks. :D


1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Don’t worry too much, everyone has bad days. It is also sometimes good to have the occasional binge. Apparently it boosts your metabolism! Don’t be too hard on yourself. Stay Strong