Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Hey guys. I know it has been a few days since my last update, but my life has just been so jumbled that I just didn't have time. First I would like to thank Survival of the Thinnest for the support. I really need it at this point in my life. I feel like everything is going wrong, even the small things in my life. It's not just my trouble with eating, it is everything. Absolutely everything. I feel I don't have any control over my life. My eating has been really bad for the past few weeks, as most of you know. It has continued. I haven't exercised. I have been eating everything I want to eat and everything I don't. I haven't purged one bit of it up. I just want to die. I could really use your support, until I get back on track. Last night I was up crying and thinking to myself. I thought that maybe I am supposed to be fat, so everyone else has something to look at and realize they don't want to look like me. I have so many emotions flowing out at once. I wish I could fill you in on what has been going on. I am really sorry that I can't, but it is for the sake of my identity. You understand, right? I don't want to feel like I am alone in all of this, but the truth is I am alone. I have no one to help me out, no one to support me, no one to just sit by my side and allow me to cry. I hate it so much. Well I am afraid I must make this short.

Stay strong, starve on.
I love you all.

By the way: If you would like to be metioned in my blog like a few others have been, you have to leave me a very supporting comment. That is how the others were mentioned. Thanks. :D


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